I'm not this person that you remember Well. It is me and it's not me
I am who I am before I met this ka-tet, and long after I last felt that kind of love Even if some of this is the ghost of this man who was yours, it's my heart and mind now
In the times when I was capable of such, I fell in love with people I had known for less than I know you now
You lived and died with and for me, a version of me Why would I not want to kiss you
( there's a lull between these various texts, as if half waiting on a reply before deciding that he has more to say. roland finds explaining himself uncomfortable at best. he's still not sure he made sense of it. those last two texts are the closest gist of it, creeping in on the mixed and vast emotions that eddie provoked - provokes - in him. )
dying for someone is the ultimate romantic gesture huh
anyway
all this... you but not you stuff is confusing and i want to help you figure it out but its gonna be weird for me sometimes okay and thats my own shit and my own issues and ill get over them
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Well.
It is me and it's not me
I am who I am before I met this ka-tet, and long after I last felt that kind of love
Even if some of this is the ghost of this man who was yours, it's my heart and mind now
In the times when I was capable of such, I fell in love with people I had known for less than I know you now
You lived and died with and for me, a version of me
Why would I not want to kiss you
( there's a lull between these various texts, as if half waiting on a reply before deciding that he has more to say. roland finds explaining himself uncomfortable at best. he's still not sure he made sense of it. those last two texts are the closest gist of it, creeping in on the mixed and vast emotions that eddie provoked - provokes - in him. )
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anyway
all this... you but not you stuff is confusing and i want to help you figure it out but
its gonna be weird for me sometimes okay
and thats my own shit and my own issues and ill get over them
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If it's weird for you, I promise it's as strange for me.
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what im saying is youre gonna have to be patient with me and im gonna have to be patient with you
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i know