Why point out something you're already aware of? If you're hoping I'll tell you that you're doing a terrible thing to your wife, you'll have to look elsewhere
Men sleep with women who aren't their wives every day Given that yours is in another world it almost makes sense Perhaps if I knew your wife I would feel differently but I don't
Do you want me to tell you that your circumstances make you exempt from being like every other person? That has never been how it works You're neither better or worse for this
i dont mean i'm i never thought id need to use that word for myself but flabbergasted about covers it
ok ok im dropping i didnt want you to think i thought that was fucked up of you or anything its just surprising in the like holy shit that sure happened! kind of way and i dont know why youd wanna do that when you barely know me at all you know and its weird that you dont remember me but i remember you and everything thats what i meant theres a lot of weirds going on for me here. like its a lot fo process on five different levels
I'm not this person that you remember Well. It is me and it's not me
I am who I am before I met this ka-tet, and long after I last felt that kind of love Even if some of this is the ghost of this man who was yours, it's my heart and mind now
In the times when I was capable of such, I fell in love with people I had known for less than I know you now
You lived and died with and for me, a version of me Why would I not want to kiss you
( there's a lull between these various texts, as if half waiting on a reply before deciding that he has more to say. roland finds explaining himself uncomfortable at best. he's still not sure he made sense of it. those last two texts are the closest gist of it, creeping in on the mixed and vast emotions that eddie provoked - provokes - in him. )
dying for someone is the ultimate romantic gesture huh
anyway
all this... you but not you stuff is confusing and i want to help you figure it out but its gonna be weird for me sometimes okay and thats my own shit and my own issues and ill get over them
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Date: 2015-09-27 08:25 pm (UTC)i know gwen, by the way
she told me about reading the books for you
she'll do a better job than i would
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Date: 2015-09-27 08:33 pm (UTC)I know
After our last palaver I thought you should be spared from reading them
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Date: 2015-09-27 09:05 pm (UTC)thank you. i appreciate that
you'll be seeing more of gwen as im seeing her
im glad you two are getting along
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Date: 2015-09-27 09:06 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-27 09:10 pm (UTC)im in love with her so we're kind of a thing
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Date: 2015-09-27 09:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-27 09:20 pm (UTC)you can say what you wanna say
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Date: 2015-09-27 09:22 pm (UTC)KEYWORD RELEVANT
Date: 2015-09-27 09:41 pm (UTC)not even gonna point out the part where im married?
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Date: 2015-09-27 09:47 pm (UTC)If you're hoping I'll tell you that you're doing a terrible thing to your wife, you'll have to look elsewhere
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Date: 2015-09-27 09:55 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-27 10:04 pm (UTC)Given that yours is in another world it almost makes sense
Perhaps if I knew your wife I would feel differently but I don't
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Date: 2015-09-27 10:27 pm (UTC)guess im just one of those
i wish you did know her. you changed her life too
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Date: 2015-09-27 10:49 pm (UTC)That has never been how it works
You're neither better or worse for this
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Date: 2015-09-27 11:21 pm (UTC)ive heard that before
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Date: 2015-09-27 11:28 pm (UTC)he thinks on kissing eddie, but that doesn't make anything clearer.
hm. )
I won't kiss you again
I don't think you need things any more complicated
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Date: 2015-09-27 11:37 pm (UTC)were you going to
i thought that was just a thing to make me feel better i didnt really know what to make of it
obviously
from my
eloquent reaction
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Date: 2015-09-28 02:19 am (UTC)I kissed you because I wanted to kiss you
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Date: 2015-09-28 02:21 am (UTC)you dont know me
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Date: 2015-09-28 02:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-28 02:25 am (UTC)for me
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Date: 2015-09-28 02:26 am (UTC)You've really no need to drag this out
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Date: 2015-09-28 02:40 am (UTC)i'm
i never thought id need to use that word for myself but flabbergasted about covers it
ok ok im dropping i didnt want you to think i thought that was fucked up of you or anything its just surprising in the like holy shit that sure happened! kind of way and i dont know why youd wanna do that when you barely know me at all you know and its weird that you dont remember me but i remember you and everything thats what i meant theres a lot of weirds going on for me here. like its a lot fo process on five different levels
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Date: 2015-09-28 02:55 am (UTC)Well.
It is me and it's not me
I am who I am before I met this ka-tet, and long after I last felt that kind of love
Even if some of this is the ghost of this man who was yours, it's my heart and mind now
In the times when I was capable of such, I fell in love with people I had known for less than I know you now
You lived and died with and for me, a version of me
Why would I not want to kiss you
( there's a lull between these various texts, as if half waiting on a reply before deciding that he has more to say. roland finds explaining himself uncomfortable at best. he's still not sure he made sense of it. those last two texts are the closest gist of it, creeping in on the mixed and vast emotions that eddie provoked - provokes - in him. )
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Date: 2015-09-28 03:58 am (UTC)anyway
all this... you but not you stuff is confusing and i want to help you figure it out but
its gonna be weird for me sometimes okay
and thats my own shit and my own issues and ill get over them
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Date: 2015-09-28 09:50 am (UTC)If it's weird for you, I promise it's as strange for me.
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Date: 2015-09-28 11:25 am (UTC)what im saying is youre gonna have to be patient with me and im gonna have to be patient with you
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Date: 2015-09-28 11:47 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-28 12:24 pm (UTC)i know